Umm….I’d be paralyzed with fear and wishing I could have lots of lead time to prepare (with a presentation coach, of course)…an elegant and well-phrased transforming message that would change the world. Umm…Paralysis…does not lead to life-changing messages. Fear…does not lead to life-changing messages. And I definitely could not use the word ‘umm’.
And yet, as I prepare to do the ‘Thing’, the Blog, the Online Presence, the Showing Up and Offering a Life, a Thought, a Lesson Learned to a Clear Voice and Strong Life, Paralysis is definitely what is setting in. Rigor mortis, maybe, because the thought of publishing truths that I have breathed in, soaked in, absorbed inward through layers and years of shedding old skin, leaves me cold and fragile and a bit afraid of the life that beckons me forward. Easier to stay sort of Zombie-Like in the space between Now and Then.
Why Is Moving From Publishing That Which Was Once Private So Difficult?
Umm…Because. Because I am reading way, way. way too much online ‘How To Do the Thing’ advice. How many Twitter feeds, websites, webcasts, webinars, about the ‘what to do’ and ‘what not to do’ of blogging, writing, publishing, being. out. there, that the fear of just plain doing it WRONG can leave a girl running right back into the chrysalis, half-transformed state, where at least there was only ONE ‘how to’ – and that was just. Breathe…and the light will come.
But I’m Moving Forward Out Of The Chrysallis Anyway. In Spite Of. No, Maybe…Because…
Because it’s time. Time to show up. With not a small portion of Integrity. With the portion of Integrity I’ve been granted by Grace so far. Offering up the Offering. Offering that as much as I’ve wanted to wrap up my life in a pretty little package and have had the tendency to put a bow on it, a BIG BOW…life, my life anyway, has not always been a pretty little package. Not so much. It has Jagged Edges frayed ribbon, and the tape. Does. Not. Stick. Undone. A lot. Yet the Jagged Edges and the Undone and the Frayed are what have defined me, not so much the Big Bow moments. Jagged Edges that surfaced, through some bleeding moments, Clarity. ‘Big C’ Clarity. Clarity of Voice. Uncovering, recovering the Voice that was lost. Jagged Edges help on the journey of becoming Strong. Strong as I learn to pick up and use the Warrior weapons of Truth, Righteousness, Courage, Peace, Faith, Salvation and the Word. THE Word.
And I fly out of the chrysalis on the wings of others, soaring ahead of me. Women with lessons learned Younger. Smarter. Integrated. Daring. Dauntless. Thank you to those of you around me, close by, who are showing the way. And thank you to those who have already Shared Openly and Freely your lessons of Becoming Clear and Becoming Visible.
Visit some of these Creatives and Warriors.
Sarah Bessey, Ann Voskamp, Ellen Graf-Martin, (fellow Canadians, you go girls!)
Shauna Niequist, Emily Freeman, Jen Hatmaker, Christine Caine,
Lisa Bevere, Lysa Terkeust, Jennie Allen, Rebekah Lyons,
Brene Brown, Geri Scazerro, Annie F. Downs,
Glennon Doyle Melton, Rachel Held Evans, Allison Vesterfelt,
… and so many more
So, What would you say if the world was listening?
Say whatever needs to be said, with a Clear, Strong Voice. Whatever You Can Say. Fly to the Other Side of Fear. Because there is One who is Listening. And He not only waits on the Other Side of Fear. He’s flying with you.